I wouldn’t be the only person that would get himself getting very confused in life. With the number of things going on it is easy to lose your way so to speak but I am here to help you in any way that I can. You might have asked yourself what what is it to be transgender? and I just want you to know that you are not alone and never will be.
The only silly question that can be asked is the ones that you are too scared to ask. I doubt you’re going to wake up one day and just decide that from then on you’ll only be watching transsexual videos but should that be the case don’t for a second think that you need to hide it. I would much prefer that you embraced it and made it your own, only then are you really going to be able to look yourself in the mirror and know that you have what it takes to make yourself happy.